Project Bambino

I met with Airplane Baby Daddy this past weekend and I have to say, it seems that we are on the same page. Yay for the same page!

Dinner on Friday was lovely, and we literally closed the place down. Granted, we made small talk for a good two hours before we got around to discussing the elephant in the room, but once we did, it went well. He told me that he would want to be like a grandfather or favorite uncle and that I could be the "primary" parent. I formalized this in an email yesterday, ie that I would have full legal and physical custody, and he agreed, saying essentially that he would be a Known Sperm Donor. Next step is to consult with my RE (reproductive endocrinologist), lawyer and private investigator.

There was only one, er, red flag. That is, we are both sort of in the same field of film production, and he kept trying to pitch me his script ideas. Like, at least 5 or 6 different ones. He was definitely more interested in talking shop than talking baby. This made me really nervous at first, and still does a bit. However, I am starting to see it as more of a blessing, actually, because it appears that he really is going to be quite hands off when it comes to bambino, unlike my alpha beta gay male couple who wanted to be consulted on every decision. I just hope that he isn't using the baby thing as a way to get me interested in his film career and offer to produce his movies or something. I can't help it, I'm old enough and wise enough to be cynical.

I am coming to terms with the thought of being a single mom. I am actually excited about it now. I know there will be huge financial, physical and mental challenges, but I am more excited than scared. If this works out, I will feel so grateful to ABD for giving me the gift of a child. I will be eternally happy that bambino can say "my dad lives in XXX" or "I have my dad's nose/eyes/ears/belly button". (S)he will have a father to celebrate father's day and birthdays with. But I will still be a single mom. Me, Bambino and puppy dog. And that makes me happy.